I've calculated my weight and my BMI shows that I am on the verge of being overweight. I want to continue with working out and having a healthy diet but every time I begin a diet I find myself having the mindset of a bulimic. I've struggled with with an eating disorder for many years especially during my high school years. When I recovered and took myself out of that cycle of pain I gained my healthy weight back and some extra. Now I'm 29 yrs old and want to lose weight. I was doing so well with working out and eating healthy and not have to binge and purge but for the last month maybe I found myself going back to bulimia again. So my question is:

How do I work on wanting to lose weight the healthy way and not turn to bulimia as my back up plan when I do over eat, on days when I don't work out I turn to bulimia also. The last month or so its been very emotional for me so I can see it now that I suddenly turned to bulimia because of the emotional stress. Currently I am working with a therapist and our focus on is to get a handle on the bulimia.