Hey savealife! I hope you are doing better! I agree with Lynn09. You should seek some help and I believe you are trying to by reaching out here. That's a great first step! I know feelings of depression can be hard and overwhelming, but its really not worth it. Even if you can't see a way out, know that there is always a way out! There is a saying of "this too shall pass" Whenever I get really depressed I remind myself of that. You also need to try and remember that suicide is a long term solution to a short term problem! My therapist always told me that whenever I contemplated it. Trust me there are so many good things still to come. Don't give up the chance to be happy. Please PM me if you need someone to talk to at all! Feel better!!!!