I am seeing my group counselor tomorrow. I'm nervous about it, b/c we are going to be talking about what happened b/t me and my foster dad back in January, and that will inevitably bring up what happened fourteen years ago. I'm really stressed out. I don't understand why I'm feeling what I'm feeling. I mean, I KNOW what he did was wrong. . .both times. But at least this time, he didn't physically hurt me. And if could forgive him before for physically/sexually hurting me, why is it so hard to forgive him now? And yet, I love this man. I love him and I love my foster mom. . .they are the ONLY real parents I've ever had, and they are very much "nanny" and "pappa" to my children. I have two younger brothers as well. I don't know how to handle this situation.