Thank you all for your heartfelt responses. I cried so much last night that I just had to stop - there was just too much emotion there. So I rang a crisis line and stayed on hold for 1 hr. I find that not knowing when someone might answer the call helps me stop crying. I drank a glass of water and focussed on my body sensations. I spoke to the guy for a little while and then had a warm milk, half a sleeping tablet and meditated. I have done up tailored meditations with my own voice (obviously) and background music. I find it very healing. So I got a few hours sleep and am better for it. I found out this morning that the real estate has double dipped on rent - taking an extra $600 from my account. I've sent them a stern email insisting on an immediate refund. Well anyway, I'm just glad I didn't stay hysterical for too long last night and managed to bring myself down. I have a couple of numbers to ring today to try to get support.