Ohhh, man. Here's one I don't think I've ever seen in here before!

I haven't cut in 11 months (yay me!) -- but the urge always comes up in times of undue stress -- and I'm really, really stressed out right now, and agitated as can be. And I'm itching to cut.

BUT, ... I'm on blood thinners!

I don't necessarily want to bleed to death, I just want to relax and calm down, and the way I get rid of over-the-top feelings is to head for a blade. But I'm also not eager to land my sorry behind in the psych ward (or the ER).

Maybe I just need to go to bed and it will all look better in the morning. I always thought I'd quit because I wanted to -- having the decision made for me by a pill, sucks! And I can't promise I won't just do it anyway.

ARGH.



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