I can feel it. It's like the brain is swishing. I don't understand why it's happening at this time. Things have been going well. And now it's slipping away. I want to quit everything. There's some evil force at hand. Maybe the world really is coming to an end in December. I felt if for the first time today. Everything seems to be getting sucked up, as if by a vacuum cleaner, only to disappear and never come back.