I agree with purplelephant and WePow. I like the example of a teacher with a classroom of students. Each one is special in his or her own way even though the teacher has a classful of them. She or he can love each student because each one is unique.

It hurts me to see another client before or after me too. It makes me think I'm just my T's "job". But I know, from the way she shows that she cares about me, that I'm NOT just her job! That's not the way she thinks of me.

I'm sure your T really does care about you and he's not acting. I don't think T's are such good actors because we can detect it if they are faking. I hope you can come to realize that about your T. Can you tell him your reaction to seeing "Miss Bouncy" and hear what he has to say?