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Nammu · May 01, 2012, 06:28 AM

((((savealife))))

I do know how you feel, I feel the same way, Ive felt that way now for a while, but I go on. Not for me but for those who will feel mad, angry upset, sad, if I'm not here.

I don't feel like they really can feel that way, but thats the feeling part of me and I know that part isn't working to good right now. So I let the brain tell me what to do.

Go to bed..pretend to sleep....get dressed...let myself feel the tears...eat when the clock says its time....I'm just marking the time....because I've been to this place before and I've gone past to that place and I've seen the anguish it caused....to my complete disbelief.

For I was so completely sure that I didn't belong here. but I was wrong. It was just a feeling...a feeling that was wrong...caused by something wrong inside of me.... I've got to trust in my mind at times like this I cannot trust my feelings because they are wrong, even though they feel so right and hurt so bad so real.

Write your feelings, speak your feelings, draw your feelings let them out share them but do not act on them for they are only temporary, I promise you. I do understand the depth of them, so alone, no one else can possibly understand, no one can possibly be your friend. please I tell you, your feelings right now are not your friend.

A phone line, a chat line, a PES, a ER anyone else is your friend but not your feelings, they betray you now, hurting and lying. Let the tears fall, the pain be felt. share with someone real, they will let you know that your feelings are temporary and they will pass, it may take time, it may take help, but it will pass.