Miara,

I don't have much to add that the others haven't already said, but I wanted you to know that there is one more person feeling for you and hoping you feel better. It really is easier if you can keep from starting to hurt yourself - if you go down that road you will probably regret it later. But do tell someone how you are feeling. Talking about it is scary, but it helps. Writing a note might be easier. There is a reason why you have those feelings, and wanting to hurt yourself means that you are looking for a way to deal with your emotions. There are better ways, like talking about what is bothering you.

It sounds like making contact with other people your own age might be very good for you. My children are also homeschooled, but they have church activities, dance lessons, and activities with other homeschoolers. Maybe you could look for homeschool groups for your age level, or take a class somewhere. Where I live dual enrollment in the public schools is an option, so kids could sign up just for band or sports or art, or a subject they are interested in. Or consider a college class or some other activity. Doing things with your mom, including helping her and then doing something fun together, also sounds like a very good idea.
Wendy

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