My emotions have been all over the place the last few days, triggered by a situation that it isn't important to go into. I'm trying to do the opposite of what I want to do and that is always very stressful and hard.

Life would be a whole lot easier if emotions from one area of my life didn't seep into others areas of my life. I try hard to not let my feelings control me or how I behave but it is tiring. That is why I'd rather not have feelings at all.

No, that is too much....what I mean is I don't mind feeling just not when they are all-consuming...that's why I self harm sometimes just to regulate and control the feelings so they don't swamp me and destroy other areas in my life. Like work. Or to give myself some respite from them.

I've not hurt myself over these feelings, I'm trying hard to slowly see if I can resolve it without doing that but it is getting very difficult. If feelings weren't so constant it'd be easier! I hate feelings, they don't seem to be a positive aspect of life....or at least my life. Actually I guess I would rather do without them completely....