Sometimes it just comes out of nowhere! I was relaxing two days ago, listening to some music, and then this awful urge to feel that feeling again just jumped up. Thankfully the new plan my T made for me helped a lot, but I'm still confused as to why it happens. Stress is a factor a lot of times, and is relatively easy to handle, but when I suddenly just get blind-sided I get really upset.

And thank you for the compliment, I was really proud that I went a whole month without a single scratch! I hope I can go even longer.