I am BP1, not 2, and I cannot help my moods. My husband knows when to stay away from me. I know I have hurt him terribly with my moods when I am unstable, but he understands that it is the illness, not me. He knows my heart, the real me, and I would never purposely hurt him.

However, I have learned coping strategies to deal with my triggers through therapy and have not hurt him in a very long time.

My dad was also an undiagnosed, unmedicated BP1 and he made life a living hell for us, but he has passed away and I choose not to remember those parts of him because I know he couldn't help it.

It is very difficult to let go of hurts brought on by your parents. My mom hurt me a whole lot and has passed away. I have tried to forgive her, but I still cannot forget, so I know exactly where you are coming from with regards to feeling the hurt brought on by your dad.