we're away on holiday supposedly for my b-day, i was really dreading it knowing that my bpd partner always seems to have a crisis on or around days i'd normally look forward to; xmas and valentines day were awful We've had a big blow up i'm selfish, attention seeking and he hates me. It's the first time he's said he wont share a bed/room with me, i'm on the single surrounded by suitcases. Worse than telling me he hates me etc he knocked the door and came in and gave me with his ring back. I think we're really over this time and i'm worried about his state of mind. A neighbour recently ended his life and was found by his gf, i'm terrified i may wake up to something similar