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Old May 02, 2012, 02:02 AM
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Had 2 visits to the counselor now, very interesting I must say.Well I hover over my wife of 22 years all I want is sex,I have no relationships with my 3 daughters, I am self centered,I care about nothing or no one just myself(wife saying).Wow wow wow took 22 years to say she finally is unhappy hmm unbelievable.I have gave my all for 22 years I am so hurt and tour up inside , I have tried to make the best out of everything as I could do so but never is good enough,I have loved my family so much, I have no friends, I have turned them all away.Here I am lost as heck, can't sleep feel like I am with a stranger in are house,man I feel so alone,all an she said,I can have sex if I really really have to re leave myself ,that is so arousing if I must,thought maybe it was menopause or another man don't think so,I think is all my fault ,cause I have gave to much and totally spoiled my hole family I have built or made whatever. I say to my self is it worth the abuse and disgrace, I have to go through,the pain the humiliation of dealing with counselors thus so far are only 1 sided I feel.Here is the problem I love her!!! that is hole issue I for real love her. Do I just give up let her go she is pushing me that away why why,I love my daughters as well ,I have done over and beyond, I have spoiled them to much as well, I do have grate relationships with all three of them,I think so,I think that might be a jealous thing with my wife saying that,but I am trying to excepted and change and try to think my wifes way but it is hard. No marriage is perfect not saying it is yea I missed allot of my daughters girly things I call them, wow is that thrown in my face at the counselors from my wife,MY BAD bad dad I should have went to more then I did I get that opps but why does that effect myself and wife as a leverage to her to complain about that.Is it worth the lost sleep and heart braking I feel I am getting to old and tired of fighting to keep it all together.
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