Hi,

This is a good place to talk to people, because there are a lot of points of view represented. I just wanted to say . . . take one deep slow breath at a time and put one foot ahead of the other. Be sure to do the simple things, like eating and sleeping. Remember that you are worth taking care of.

I think there is good advice in the postings above about seeking help for your symptoms. It is understandable that you would be upset to be in this situation. But really none of us know exactly what is going on with you and why or how exactly to help you. I don't think you know for sure either. But it won't help you to imagine the worst and assume that is what is happening to you. So again, try to be calm. Keep track of what is happening. Make a list of what is troubling you.

Then get ready to get help. I personally have a lot of resistance to this step. First I write notes that say something like "I will call a doctor." After a week or so, I will ask for a doctor's name or look one up. I will pin up the name on the wall so I can look at it for a week. Then I will get a phone number and plan for a day when I will call them in about another week. Finally the day comes. Sometimes I still don't want to call on that day, so I then reschedule it for another day. Eventually I do it.

It would be so much simpler to just call them to start, but it is too difficult to do it that way. Please give yourself the space to do it the way you can, but do at least make yourself a list of why you should get help.

Hugs to you!