Welcome to PC, Willowleaf!
I understand not wanting to give in to illness and to push ahead. However, it's so important to take care of ourselves and give us time to heal. If you have been giving time to take care and the docs are telling you to take care, please do so. You deserve no less than good care of yourself. There is nothing wrong with taking some time to heal. Do what you can, not push it, take things one moment at a time, and in no time you will be back to up to par. Best wishes for a speedy recovery. Hang in there.