I'm really sorry Moremi,

How does your bank give you access to next months money? Is there a way yo could change this setup? I have a big shopping problem too when I am manic, well even when I'm depressed sometimes. I have limited income because I am on disability, but that does mean if I do any damage I will suffer the consequences because my income is pretty low to begin with.

I use cash only. And I keep it all on me, not in my account, sounds like a bad idea for some people but it works for me. I need to have that visual. It's a lot harder to hand over paper money than a plastic card, for me. And I always know exactly how much money I have, and spent. I have no credit cards or other means of spending either. So that way I cannot rack up any debt. As soon as I get paid I pay all my bills immediately, get groceries ect. I only get paid once a month so I really have to balance it out well. This works for me pretty good.

Is there some kind of system you could make for yourself that would make spending difficult? I hope you can find a way because we all know the aftermath is painful to deal with.