I am trying to talk to my therapist about it all. The issue being what it is means that it isn't as straight-forward as other times in regards to talking through it all though. I am having to be quite reliant upon myself for the time being.

I'm feeling quite depressed but I don't want to show my family I am feeling this way because I'm not in the place to deal with them being too close to me. That is the problem though isn't it most of the time - the times when I need people the most is when they are the most scary. That isn't to say I don't trust my family because I do completely....it is beyond that...

Thank you for caring.