Hey there! Do you remember me? I used to post there all the time, but sadly Bipolar doesn't bother me at all anymore... Just the psychosis crap.

I know what you mean about the invasive thoughts. I get those a lot... And much like you, I've never been actively suicidal but I get my mind invaded by thoughts of bringing myself to a point of near death or hospitalization. I wish I knew what that was about, because it oftentimes comes clear out of the blue!!
A few months ago, I had my worst bout of that. Which was really horrible since I was in public with my boyfriend... I was obsessing about running into the fastfood bathroom & smashing my head into the ceramic hand dryer until I went unconscious. That was really hard to cope with. :/

I really hope your thoughts go away soon! The thing I find to be the trigger for ALL psychosis is stress. Even if it's days before or you think it's "not that bad", that is the thing that always bites me in the *** & causes me to mentally unhinge... It's like all of the stress gets processed wrong, internalizes, & manifests as psychosis rather than worry or panic.
So first order of business? Cut down on your stresses. Have people help you out whenever you need it.

That's all I can suggest now. I hope you start feeling better soon!! But at least you make sure to take good care of yourself for your kids. That's so important. Not that I need to tell YOU that, of course! : )