The strange thing is that I don't feel inattentive. I think it partially has to do with being on disability, so I'm not forced to the same point as others to work with really boring stuff or try to study things that wont catch my attention.

I miss reading books, something I actually could do in the past. So I'm not sure if that part is inattention or something else.

My main issue seems to be normal everyday functioning. I can't for my life start at a starting point naturally and go through doing something and then complete it. It's impossible. Usually I think about a single action days before, and I almost panic when I really have to do it. Because I know how bad it will feel. I'm not sure why simple tasks are so draining for me, but they are, to the point where they scare me. If I really manage to start up a project I can sometimes have a hard time stopping even. I had my friend almost physically drag me away from cleaning. I think it is because it is so hard to start, that when I can, I don't want to rest and restart, it is less draining (for the moment), to keep going until I feel it is done, or until I collapse.

Ritalin has helped me some in starting things up. Sometimes I have just started something even just thinking about it a few minutes which is very amazing.

Ritalin changes who I am, so I don't know if it is worth it or not.