I'm so tired, I keep making mistakes, I'm tired of not beong happy when I should be, I'm tired of fighting, tired of feeling so empty inside. I have just been crying all day. Now I'm being yelled at for crying I can't take this anymore, cutting kept me from crying in front of others, now I remember why I never wanted to. It just causes more problems. I feel so selfish I had wanted to take a trip to Europe this summer, when I made the plans I had nothing holding me here, now I do, no one I know is going, I'm gonna be one of the oldest ones there too, and I'd be there for my birthday and my 2 and only friends were gonna do something special, now it's not gonna happen. I already made a deposite I can't back out how stupid of me. I swear I'm not gonna cut I'm distracting myself, I've made it 3 weeks I swear I'm not gonna.
Sorry Just trying to pass the time and keep my hands busy.
Chippie