I agree with the above, it's a different kettle of fish, so don't be hard on yourself. That being said, my cognitive function deteriorated in an absurd manner while medicated and mind you I was on minimum dosages, so I wasn't exactly a zombie... There were times it seems I couldn't grasp or retain any new information, it didn't help that my memory was reduced to goldfish status either. If I had to buy more than 5 items, I needed a list! When people explained something to me, my brain worked OT to comprehend! Embarrassing does not describe it. VERY heartbreaking for me. I'm glad my brain's back now