Thanks BipolaRNurse! I know I should have a psychiatrist, but I REALLY don't want to be on any meds for my BP. I have been feeling good so far this week, so maybe the Topamax has left my system. I haven't felt like I'm manic and the irritability and weepiness and depression has lifted, so maybe what I was experiencing was just a combination of things (it was my period week AND I am hypothyroid AND I wasn't sleeping well- I work nights) I know if I do start cycling again I will have to do something. Finding the right psychiatrist isn't easy though...
Anyway, I appreciate your advice! Thank you!!