Im so lost in my mind, I dont want the meds b/c I dont know the "medicated" lisa or what normal is 'supposed' to feel like, I only know what the disease feels like... sad really, I have not attempted to talk with my dr about it yet.. I plan to but lately iv been really angry and full of hatred, lots of anxiety, my mind races constantly, Im not happy I just hate everything and feel like givin up n letting the "devil inside me" win. Fighting it is to exhausting..