Mortimer parents have a responsibility to guide their children regarding what is right & what is not.This guiding light was missing when you needed it.Parents ought not only guide,but also protect their children.I don't know what forced them to be so negligent,they might have had their reasons-but you NEED TO CONSIDER THAT YOU WERE FLOUNDERING IN THE DARK & NOBODY SHOWED YOU THE WAY.The human body has been made this way that hormones ,when roused by physical touch do give pleasure,it has little to do with you being good or bad.You are now grown up & realize the significance of those episodes,but you lacked this understanding at a youger age when it all started-don.t be so hard on yourself.One learns as one grows up.