So basically, lately I've been really worried about my mental health, I am diagnosed with bipolar but since coming off meds I feel nothing. I don't mean I feel better, I mean I literally feel nothing. No compulsion to get up or go to school, find it hard telling anyone how I feel, or feeling anything for family and friends. Anyway this has been going on since the end of last year, and for the same time I've been having nightmares quite often.

The nightmares are all different but they are usually violent and pretty gross... Although I don't feel grossed out by them. Visions such as being where I grew up as a child, only the place is basically abandoned and messed up, and mute children walk past me, watching me as they eat the bones out of their own knuckles. Or being in my primary school library and having a man come in and scalp women and tell everyone there they are next. And as he scalps the woman next to me I sit there watching, frozen but intrigued.

I don't know why I'm having these and would love if anyone can maybe shed some light on it or at least tell me they get the same thing and I'm not crazy...