Thank you for the advice Shezbut

It's just hard to stay out, I want to make sure my mom is okay and not getting taken advantage of, I know me and my mom have our problems but she is still my mom and I am protective of her and my family

I am doing best to stay clear away from it all, I live an hour away so I can't be too directly involved just keeping an eye on things for my mom's sake and making sure my dad and sister are okay

I stayed up last night, because I couldn't sleep, usually I go to bed with my boyfriend but he went to bed very early because he has been working 12 hour days.

I stayed up and just ended up crying and crying. I eventually made it into bed and just continued to cry myself to sleep.

I feel very rageful, I feel sad, I feel empty, I feel unwanted....