hopefully this will demonstrate his narcism better:

a.)
he has no appreciation of other peoples desires.
none.
to the point where he'll tell me the same story 10 times over {word4word}.
i'll explain that he's told me already.
but that does not factor into it.. he's not telling me a story as such.
It's him telling the story thats important.
the particular story will show him in a particular light and quel any insecurities that he had on that subject.
i am just a tool for this psychological process of his.

b.)
He snogged a prostitute at the dinner table (infront of me.), shortly after breaking up marriage with my mum.

c.) i'll have some friends over. as soon as they arrive, so does my dad from upstairs.
He will then, without fail spend half an hour talking to/at my friends.
he will make a sustained effort to exclude me from these conversations.
even to the extent of deliberately standing infront of me; inbetween me and my friends.. and making sure never to make eye contact with me or let them do so either.
He makes sure to cover all and everything relevant.
will take over the enjoyment of sharing recent events; catching up e.t.c
makes sure to leave no single shred of interesting things me and him might have knowledge of for me to tell.
extracts all the information like: how are you? what are you up to?
and when he feels like he's got his dues.. then he clears off.
leaving all the initial things me and my friends would talk about already covered.



theres just so many things he does... i'm drawing blanks at the moment.
but it is definitely there.

- sorry if i'm on the defense here... but usually/almost always.
people don't believe me when i talk about his narcism.
it's Very frustrating.
They think i'm being neurotic or something like that.
and just like the fear of people thinking your vein - when you have bdd.
i get upset when i really 'try to pour my heart out about this. and people just tell me its nothing.
(my friends don't believe me. they know somethings up with him.. but leave it at that)
^ those friends also don't believe in anxiety disorders
and i have all but given up trying to explain to them about how my anxietys effect me.

but this is all driving me crazy.
depersonalization, Bad self realizations, Whopping anxiety, awful living environment, recurrent depression.
i do have therapy on the way, but the nhs waiting list is Long.
cx