Found out today our food stamps were canceled...crying a bunch...having that terrible burning feeling inside, in my stomach, heart, and shoulders: very frustrated and feeling hopeless...and hungry. Yesterday I was doing pretty good...and thinking maybe I could finally work my way out of the rut...and now this. I have lots of dietary restrictions for my kidney & digestive problems, and I was trying to also treat my hypoglycemia/depression/mania with a healthy diet...but I can't afford to now.
Every Fu€K!ng Time! I start working my way out of the pit, and the Big Bad World comes along to kick my *** back in there. A round kick to the head this one. Really? Why? Not meant for this world, can't handle it, should've taken care of it for good back in 7th grade...thank god we don't have a gun.
I wil survive today. I'm too stubborn to give up now....but I don't know how to handle this pain and hopeless rage...I feel like a supernova...here comes the black hole!