((((((((((((((((((((((candybear))))))))))) it has been a long time since I have communicated with you... I know Milwaukee if that jogs your memory at all of me... anyhooooooo I just have to say this... YOU are not a loser , YOU are not a jerk, and you are definitely not a freak.. send flowers, it isn't as if you live next door. Call your sister and the kids later after it has settled for the day and let her know that you care. You have to take care of you and you know this candybear or there will be no caring for anyone. My heart goes out to you at this time because it is confusing, just know that you have many friends here that care about you and will have you in their thoughts during this rough time. Hugs to you again. LInda