Sorry you're feeling so down, therealme. I'm not sure what a "cpn" is, but if you were taken off his books due to an improvement, why can't you get back on his books due to a set-back? And why wouldn't your wife help you do whatever is necessary to improve the quality of your life rather than just limiting your freedom of movement to keep you "safe," I guess?
Life is not a game - it is not a drill - this is the real deal and, for all we know, we may only get one shot at making it what we will to the best of our individual abilities despite our individual limitations. You must advocate for yourself and enlist the aid of others who will advocate further for you. Do all that you can to give yourself the very best chance of having the fulfilling and worthwhile life you desire beyond the status quo.  lynn09
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure; she chattered all the way, But left me none the wiser for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow and ne'er a word said she; But oh, the things I learned from her when Sorrow walked with me!"
(Robert Browning Hamilton; "Along The Road")
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