you said you didnt want him as a romantic partner but you also said that you were in love with him, so im a little confused by that. do you have any friends outside of therapy? i think when therapists feel like youre getting to close to them they drop you. i had one therapist that i was probably too dependant on emotionally and she moved on to another treatment center. i still havent found anyone that understands me like she did. try not to be so hard on yourself. its not your fault that you have such intense feelings. i dont know how good i am at giving advice and also sometimes that pisses people off. lol, but i feel that way too sometimes. angry and confused, questioning why i cant live my life and function like everyone else. when you have a mental illness its damn near impossible to be normal. besides, "normal" is overrated anyways. you just gotta do the best you can. maybe you cant be the person they want you to be but you can try to be the person that you want to be.