hi, my name is kristine, and I have a problem. A few, actually. Ive struggled with depression for years, 17 to be exact. Ive tried to commit suicide 5 different times, and the thoughts still pass through my mind from time to time. I can't afford to see a therapist, so clinical trials are the best I can do for treatment right now. Lately, I've been cutting thanks to feelings of worthlessness and feeling like a failure, and because I feel like the world's most evil person. The onlly things keeping me alive are God and a promise I made to my fiancee that I wouldn't try to kill myself again. To make things worse, I'm struggling with my job, and I feel like I'm hitting walls. I can't focus, I have daily headaches, among other things. If anyone knows of any better way to get treatment despite a lack of money, please let me know. Thanks.