A couple of times within one week I took a klonopin before session. I was determined not slither into emotionality. I wanted to approach my issues with clear and analytical mind. I wanted to be in control. I wanted to be on top of things. I wanted to face my demons with a kind of determination and I felt that by getting emotional, I wouldn't be able to easily tackle them.

The following week I told my T I was "under the influence". She didn't tell me not to do that but she requested that I inform her if I do it again.

When I've called her before session at a later date asking if it wouldn't be better to take some klonopin so I can get through session, she advises against it. She tells me it's my choice but she explains that most progress can be made when we allow ourselves to feel our emotions.

How alcohol or recreational drugs affect therapy, I have no idea. I suspect they're a bad idea also.