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Old May 03, 2012, 07:23 PM
Anonymous100180
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I don't have that many hallucinations anymore... Just misinterpreting things that are actually there. Lately it's just my thinking & behaviour that have been flawed.

For a few months last year, I experienced primarily hallucinations with some very mild delusions & anxety. My auditory hallucinations are hard to describe... Most were really difficult to hear; they sounded far away & muffled, but they were around most of the time.
My only very obvious ones were usually VERY brief, such as Beetlejuice screaming "boo!" or someone repeating my name. I've only ever had one negative obvious voice... He kept whispering "psst, hey... kill yourself" over & over again until I fell asleep. He was going on for a good half an hour. Very calm voice, though, so it was weird.

Other than that, my only other auditory hallucinations were just noises. Explosions, someone jingling keys, footsteps, tapping, closing doors, etc. I have been getting increasing amounts of thought insertion in the past few months... Maybe my voices have been replaced by more strange thoughts?

But to answer your question; I don't feel one way or the other about them. Their presence is obviously abnormal. I can only equate it to someone who is spiritually involved. You FEEL that there is someone there watching & it proves its existence to you... It doesn't always make sense. And it's often really unnerving. But you just learn to accept its' presence. And eventually, at least in some people, you can come to learn what it was that they were trying to convey: past traumas, poor esteem issues, etc.
Ultimately, it doesn't matter what you think about them. They're just there. Just like the universe is.
Thanks for this!
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