I hear you loud and clear and I believe you. I am in the same situation. They are cunning and ingenius. They are so good at making anyone believe what they want that it sometimes has you believing it too.

I was so insecure and unsure of anything that happened to me even though the memories were like it happened yesterday. Still, I thought "am I delusional?" Do I have such a vivid imagination to tell such unbelievable stories? Or the best..."why are you doing this to them". They are good people and maybe the stress you're under has clouded your memory. That last one came from my best friend yesterday. Guess I'll be taking a break from that friendship for awhile.

I think the worst part about any abuse (mine are NPDs) is when you KNOW you're telling the truth, you KNOW you're remembering it correctly and yet people, even our friends, cannot wrap their brains around the fact that some abusers are so manipulative, so controlling, and worse have the capability to pull off both personalities making you look like some pathological liar or chalk it up to selective memory syndrome.

Just know you're not alone and that counts for something!