I hate you and I'm glad you're leaving.

I hate you because you're leaving.

I'm so sad and scared because you're leaving.

F**k. Why is this so hard?

I don't want to talk to new T she sounds horrible on the phone. I just want to see my psych more often. And no one else.

Things are falling apart. I'm starting to plan. But I can't tell anyone because I refuse to be locked up again.

So triggered today. I just need relief. I don't know what to do. And I have no one I can talk to.

Honestly I'm holding on by a thread - my mums birthday is tomorrow I can't ruin that for her. And my kitten she's so special I don't think anyone realises how much I rely on her..