PuffyPrue-your mom was cruel and WRONG. As far as people leaving you, unless people get married, relationships run their course ad people move on- it' s not a reflection on you. Because you are in a such a dark place i know you you arent going to agree you are lovable but i assure you, YOU ARE VALUABLE, LOVABLE AND WORTHWHILE. You mentioned your students. You dont want to
kill yourself i front of them. They would be traumatized if you killed yourself period. You have a responsibility to yourself, to your students and to those of us on pc to get help. We love you, PuffyPrue.