wow just thought i would share this dream i had and get some thoughts.

i was a little kid(i am always young when i am in a dream,does this happen to anyone else)

i was in this big House don't know if it was a residential treatment or just a house.but i was there ,the mother was there and my T.

there were many flights of stairs and i was in a room at the very top and my T and the mother were in a kitchen all the way down at the bottom.i cant remember what words were spoken but i believe my T was trying to tell the mother what was going on with me and how what she was doing was hurting me etc...i don't have any idea what the mother was responding if at all.

like i said i was a little girl.i was unable to talk at all.i don't know if it was because i didn't want to or couldn't because of fear but i couldn't talk and that was one of the problems.i was so so terrified that i was going to be seen by the mother during the whole dream.i was sneaking closer down the stairs because my T was there and i wanted to be close to her i wanted her to know i was there.but was scared the mother would see me.i had my shoes in my hand so i wasn't making any noise.i also seemed to have this special ability to move around without making any noise or have any trace that i was around.almost like i was invisible.but i was still terrified that the mother could hear or would see me.but i was quiet.i had finely made it down all the stairs and was hiding to side of the kitchen door.wishing with all my heart that my T knew that i was there because i was so scared and i was afraid that she would leave me there or something.then all of a sudden my T cave out of the kitchen and over to me,the mother seemed to be totally oblivious to the fact that i was there.my T bent down and gave me a hug.it felt so safe and good like she wasn't going to let anything happen to me.but then she stopped and told me to get back up the stairs and all the fear and anger returned and i turned and started running up the stairs and i was making noise a lot of it and i was terrified the mother was going to hear and know i was there.i got so scared it woke me up.

i so didn't want to wake up at all because it had felt so safe but when i woke up i was left with all the fear,panic,and anger.and felt it most of the morning.

i would never tell my T i had this dream in fact i am kind of embarrassed about it.weather it is normal or not. i think it may have to do with the stuff my T was talking about last session.it is all kind of confused in my head so much so that i am not going any wear near those thoughts.maybe it is my way of dealing .i don't know