I am so grateful to finally find a community of people who understand. For the past week I have been trying to reach out to my husband and my mom for some understanding but they just don't want to hear it. I am hurting inside, I am so frustrated with all of this, it feels like I am being pulled apart, I can't focus, I just want to cry and sleep. I feel horrible because I don't seem to get anything done in the house. My husband just chooses to leave my alone. I have no patience with the kids, makes me feel even worse. Mom wants me to 'snap out of it', husband ignores it, how am I supposed to feel any better if noone will listen or just hold me for a little while. I cry alone. I have a house full of kids, daycare and my own, I seem to be able to keep it together just long enough for them to go home and then I lose it. I fall apart or I sit and stare out the window or a page in a book without really seeing anything. I'm almost ashamed to cry in front of my family, I don't think they really believe anything is wrong with me, so I hold it in until I can be by myself again. How long can a person go on like this before they lose their mind?