yes, you will be OK. and yes, you are strong! you are strong because you ARE facing your emotions and your fears and living with and through and above them.
It's good to know that you do have the option to text T if you need. Just allow yourself to feel the security of knowing you have that if it's needed, and it's OK to need and to use it. Give yourself permission to do it just like T gave you permission already.
What theBunny said reminded me of something I do sometimes - occasionally, there will be something that makes me want to laugh at an inopportune time (say, in church) and I learned that if I kept telling myself, don't laugh, it only increased the urge to laugh and I invariably did laugh. So I decided to turn it around and say to myself, go ahead and laugh, it's OK, go ahead! Sounds odd maybe, but that helped better to control the urge than fighting it.
So just say to yourself, it's OK if I do ..... and OK if I wait to do it too .... not fighting the need or denying it to yourself will help you.