Thanks for the support. I texted my T last night with obvious emotional breakdown and she texted back this morning (she never texts!) saying that she will call when she has some time and that she will try to find the time. I'm actually going out of town with my roommates later today to hike/camp for the weekend, so hopefully I can relax and enjoy that. I see T on Monday, so it's good I'll be occupied until then.

I don't know what people would be jealous of me for- I'm so mediocre.

I want someone who will be there for me through thick and thin. Someone I can count on and who puts me/us first most of the time (instead of seventh as my ex-bf admitted). Someone who isn't afraid to be vulnerable with me. And someone who wants to explore and travel with me. Also, intelligence, humor, honesty, etc are nice qualities too.

I try to be involved in church activities (theres a young adult section of 20s to mid 30s) and volunteer when I can. I run and do races. I try to be friendly and meet new people, but I have a hard time finding someone to click with (even as friends). I'm moving across the country in a few months for a different graduate program, but I'm afraid I'm in for more of the same.

I don't want to settle for just anybody, but at the same time I don't even have any guys to reject. They just aren't interested at all! I'm in the minority being still single now, except for the girls I know who don't date at all (for various reasons). Plus, as my friends and cousins pair up, I get pushed aside.

I know a relationship won't fix my life and make everything peachy-keen, but I'd like someone to be there by my side through the rough times, instead of having to go through it all alone.