I was diagnosed after a two week manic shopping spree/getting drunk and dancing on bars. I crashed into a very dark place and i just wanted to curl up in a ball and die. I was calling into work because i coukdnt even leave my house. My husband got me out of the house one day and while he went in the bank i qas trying to keep myself from taking the car and running head on into traffic. It was awful. I just told him to take me to the hospital because i was having a nervous breakdown. Diagnosed bipolar 1, anxiery w panic attacks, agorophobia, ocd and bpd. My life has never been the same since. I had another breakdown a year later w two more hospitalizations. Its been a rough couple of years.