Hello & Welcome, Kristen29! If you are in the USA,
2-1-1 (United Way/AIRS)
might be the place to at least start getting information on where to turn for help. You are no stranger to depression and more. Please keep posting here and also consider the
Self Injury Forum.
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My dog
mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.