I said this to myself many times, wishing for a pill that would magically make it all better. I do take an antidepressant, and tried to go off it, weaning myself for over a year, but found I couldn't manage. The meds just help. In the end, I managed to do a lot on my own to arrive at peace.
It takes time, and you have that! You want to be well, and you will succeed!