What an excellent post, skysblue. Thanks so much for this. I love the seed analogy, it's very beautiful. I'm going through something similar, but it's a kind of rebirth, rediscovering myself. I think I'll read the book, too. I'm still not sure what kind of "togetherness" I have with my T, and it sounds like this explains it very well.

I DO understand about you missing your T. After my appt next week, I'll have to go 2 weeks w/o seeing him and I just hate it. And by that time, your T will be back.