You'll eventually get there, one step at a time!

Usually when I desire something I also try to keep in mind that I may fear the opposite. Best way to tell is through your triggers/reactions. So, while I may hold the desire to be well it is likely that I hold the fear that I will never be well. A conflict exists between what you want and what you don't want. And underneath all that are beliefs on whether you think you deserve to be well or deserve to be unwell. Do you deserve to be well? If you feel that you don't deserve this state of being, ask yourself why not? Just need to keep digging and discovering what is stopping you from 'being well'. If that makes sense