Yes, you will find ppl who listen here I was wondering how long has it been since you've had a check up by an MD... please do talk with one and let her/him know how terrible you are feeling.

Sometimes ppl don't listen because they don't know how to handle their own problems, much more someone elses. Telling someone to "snap out of" a depressive state is plain old fashion and ignorant. By not going for help is giving in to that illogical reasoning.

It sounds like you are definitely overwhelmed..and there are plenty of things you can do to find relief. I think someone IRL -a doctor- can help you find which ones will work for you. TC