oh another thing she is asking me to do it get somebody to handle my finances pay my bills for me she doesn't want to do it though.

Apparently I am lying to my pdoc. I was under the assumption if my pdoc asks me how I am doing she's asking in the now. Not the past 2 weeks. Blah! I seem to always tell pdoc i am feeling good lol because at the time I am.

My mom thinks I should go back sooner to pdoc or possibly her come with me to an appointment to advocate for me?!?

And wow don't ever explain to your parent's that you think of killing yourself on an almost daily basis. It freaks them out. WTF? Just trying to be honest with them.

I think there slowly starting to realize why I got kicked out of the Navy. I never told them why but I was originally discharged for having BPD ((( Pdoc's exact words your behaviors and diagnosis were not conducive to military service and as we had 3 days between underway and deployment I had extremely limited options for treatment. Self mutilation and suicidal ideation are service disqualifying and my responsibility to the Navy was to ensure individuals not deploy who would not function well in a deployed environment." )))