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Old May 05, 2012, 05:57 AM
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i feel totally embarrassed that she hugged me in my dream and that i was OK with that because in real life i wouldn't be .i wouldn't want her thinking that it would be and that i want her to hug me. i also feel like all those feelings i had were just wrong,and scary because in real life i don't think it would be OK to feel them .like feeling so comforted by my T(i should be able to comfort myself)i wouldn't want her to think i need her to comfort me even if i want it because it isn't OK at all. i know it isn't her job and i believe it would freak her out. i don't want her to change our relationship because she is scared that i want to cross all kinds of boundaries.when even if i did i know i wouldn't.i don't think i could handle that at all.i mean i freak out that i did something horribly wrong because a chair is moved
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